The journey and talk, as I explained was done on the night of 15 Feb, 2020 right after Valentino, as usual it also went by as a normal day, adding 26 years & 11 Months of Singleness in the Life.
However, the talk was inspired from the stand-up comic, motivation lectures, “Jeeveshu Alhuvalia”, its just I like his content too much, as its family based and easily relatable, and the acting of Punjabi Mom, is just so fun to witness. Now as much we cherish today, but every person has some backstory & people in Laughing Business, has some kind of sad story and that is the chief reason they understand the value of “Laugh” and its effects.
Now in his talk, while concluding it said just 1 line which hit on me, it was like this “Imagine someday, there is NOT a single penny left in your hand, your Parents are no more and there is no one around. You are all alone, …..WHAT ARE YOU GONNA do THAT EVENING ?? “ Find this thing, and run towards it, I found in Stand-Up, and that’s why I’m here. Life is too short to be wasted living someone else’s dream.
This literally took a hit on me, when I am studying to achieve something in Life, I have certain goals and thinking pattern. Why it took hit on me only at this time, I don’t know, I had for long time been following “Simon Sinek”, “Fight Club” and such motivational talks and movies, but never it occurred to me to ask myself.
So Last night after watching the clip on Youtube, I sat down with some papers and started this beautiful journey of talking to The Great Teacher. Here is what i exactly wrote:
What if some day everything finishes, every penny, every relation everything in your life finishes
–> What would you be doing that evening ?
–> To my consciousness 15/02/2020 — 10:05 PM
–> What would be be doing that evening ??
–>All Lost everything is gone. (Up till here I had no clue, so provoking the master)
–> I will first sleep, I shall just sleep and take rest first.
–> Next Morning ?? — first thing is Food (I’m foodie by nature, and dont care more than this)
–> Yes there is no job, No food, All relatives are off, and No friends. You are 1 single soul surviving for yourself, what would you do ??
–> My Consciousness –> we have to come out of this chaos, everything is finished, there must be something which we can do to live our life and at-least get by
What would you prefer ??
(Checking my Options, based on my preferred choices)
Job in Jodhpur –> or Coming back to Delhi ?? and trying to start a life again .
–> There are no strings on you and once you leave, there is no point of going back coz at 1 place you have to make living.
–> Lets have Choices –>
–> Become a CA — Restart from scratch and be one,
–> Become a Risk Engineer — Come back to Delhi and travel endlessly for life
–> Become a Teacher at some coaching centre, and be around everyone’s emotional sympathy.
Sources of Income — Will rent the House to different people and get some rental income, will use that rental income to get back to Delhi and restart my life as Risk Engineer at any Company.
Will Live Life Now — Join the office have some people to chit chat, work and travel endlessly, Prepare for my exams .. CFI or ACII or some sort of like this, and if all this is finished & I’m CFPS & CFI then I shall try to be Risk Engineer in foreign, learn the tact of trade and live life
–> The income will help me to just get by — till I be old
–> When I’m old — I shall return to Jodhpur, to just live in the house and eat Rentals
What if somehow Foreign does NOT happens ??
Then I shall work here itself till I get one [Foreign Job is MUST].
All I shall do is move out of India, NOT TO EARN, but just to run away from the world and learn the trade.
Being CA — will definitely help me; but to do What??
–> When everything is over, Money collection will certainly not help me !!!
Sitting at common place all day shall make me weak, and I would only run…..and where ???
Where would I bring people to talk to ??
Doing a 9-5 Job shall keep me engaged, I shall watch movies every night, will learn boxing.
If I am out of country and I mean any country — Dubai, Malasiya, USA, London, I shall just stay, Coz what could I do after coming back — there are no obligations on me to earn, but this is what I do and I am best at it.
I simply cannot be seated at 1 place and live till eternity especially when such a tragedy has occurred.
Teaching is a choice, but all in all I shall return at 1 common place and then I shall be unable to live in that place which has witnessed such tragedy.
Rental & Foreign Income will just add to fund corpus & make my life in old age happy and after becoming old it would be easy to return and at that time also, I shall try and go to Haridwar so that people can do my last rites locally and have no pain in doing so !!!
Thats how it could be satisfactory, coz there are no friends, No family, What should I do and for whom should I do.
Travelling will basically give me motive — to care for someone , Someones Business, Sm1’s life, and sm1’s happiness will have my happiness, thats all it is.
If I dont get any of it, then atleast I can find sm1 to restart my life in a foregin land and when there is no one around in terms of relatives and culture, it makes no sense to integrate your culture in anyone, Coz who is looking ???
All in All ….. CA is a JOB — which will just keep me at 1 place and a chain, So that I be shackled at 1 place and as my obligation to my children, I shall have it.
Risk Engineer — Job in Foreign Land is the only safe heaven. Not even teaching.
Why Foreign ???
Its good to move out and learn new stuff, rather than sit at same place and cribble on what is lost. Making a New Life at a new place will give motive to work and would keep sorrows at bay.
Sitting at 1 place will just remind of the emptiness or make you emotionally weak.
You may get new hobby and then you are free to marry anyone, live at any place, do anything and live life after office. Play Games on TV, watch netflix, Go to movies, parties, …. getting wasted, is not good for health so NO !!!!
Get Any Girl, Any girl with no strings on her to be anything other than your wife.
Job of Risk Engineer — Nothing much, no designation, no nothing, but just enough pay to get by !!
A rental home shall also do and with time I shall have enough money to atleast rent a decent home and keep maid for domestic help.
–> Anywhere, expat lift is ok, there are no calls coming, so even phone is also not an option. Any level of job be it manager, trainee, anything. I just want to work and earn enough to live and have no plans of collecting. I already have a backup home where rental is getting collected
If I have juniors under me, I shall teach them and thats how teaching would be done. I have my blog, will write on it and collect everything to relive past at old age
Learn New Language, new culture visit different restaurants to eat, shall explore the world, thats best I can do. Live a struggling life,, till eternity (to keep sorrows at bay) and just pass on.
Living in India shall then do NO GOOD, Why ???
Life would have no meaning, and you would be like gear of system and all in all you shall want is to run back or look out for yourself. I just dont want to go to the place where such tragedy has occured. All I want is to move forward.
See struggle is there — anywhere you live, but the struggle, is it worth it ??
This struggle shall help me to explore the world and there is fair chance I can get sm1 in old age or matter of fact in any age. Living in India shall take this chance away and all you can have is an affair but not a meaningful relation.
There may be a slight chance to have meaningful relation and who knows I may get a Green Card if the country is like English Speaking.
Finally After self realization, I Concluded it ….. which goes like this
Foreign Job, Foreign Culture, is this you want , to be in isolation ???
#Pitaa_jee_nahi_Maanenge, …….mom will never say yes, unki self struggle bot zyaada hai, and foreign willl just finish the family.
#Mushkil se ek hue hai, Old age mein no one want to travel aur apni mitti ho to aur he acha hai. Kids will bring ultra happiness to their life and may be a middle class family shall give satisfaction of eternity.
Foreign will not just satisfy and they are not ready for traveler life.
Even If I Get it, I will have to return early so that family could be made and Being CA will do only this. Make the familly complete and bind them for eternity. Its not about the money, but its about the keeping the unity of family for eternity, through a business which keeps all the members of the family engaged and never in any generation there comes a time when any kid has to leave his family and build life outside.
Thats it for this post, which is the exact way of me talking to the Grand Master, but 1 thing is for sure, after pondering over it, I would somehow integrate all my dreams into 1 huge Goal and shall pursue it.
“When your middle class your dreams die first, I say they get delayed but never die“
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